Transitioning from craving work to craving naps

There’s always a small phase in our lives where we seem to be so free that any sort of work would keep your mind afloat amidst the black waters of boredom. When the vacation exceeds its time limit we feel the need to do something to get back in the game, we feel excluded and a little worthless knowing that something productive can be done in this time.

But the moment we’re finally given some work to do, we find ourselves crying for the next weekend. Monday feels like hell and so does the end of Sunday. I myself am also going through this.

After I cleared an exam that would put me in med school, I had a 6 month vacation in hand. It felt unreal to be so free, to have no pressure or load, to sleep without guilt and do whatever you wish to do. You don’t have any constraints and the world becomes your canvas.

But now that I’m overloaded with work, all I can dream of is a small break, just a few days where I can sleep without waking up with work hanging over my head, just a few minutes where I can sip my coffee in peace, just a few seconds where I can watch the bird pass by.

And I do have the freedom to do this but it doesn’t feel right, I seem to fail in finding balance in life, its 100% in one field. I feel that I’m not really alone here, I know so many that do the same and that makes me feel a little less lonely. I don’t know what it will take to find the right amount of time distribution but all I know is that someday I’ll get there.